need

I always thought that being needed would lead to being wanted.  truth is it doesn't really work that way.  Being needed, only leads to being used.  The thing is you can't blame the person who is using you, because it's your fault.  You encourage it, even demand it at times, hoping against hope that they will see you in a different light.  It's a lost cause.  The user might even come to completely depend on the used, like a tire depends on air, but it can never care for it.  It can even acknoledge that you haev always been there, always been supportive, but they can never want you. And if you withdraw that support, you feel like the evil one, maybe you are the evil one, because you caused it