Friendship

So what makes people friends? And I ask this not based on one event, but on several over the last few days, last week. I'm sure if a certain person reads this. they will assume it's all about one argument or discussion.  A negative event. But it's just as much about a very nice conversation I had last night. A conversation wth someone, who might be a friend. Or maybe just a client or associate.

So what makes a friend? Is it shared political beliefs? Shared religion? Do we pick our friends based on proximity, physical attraction, similar tastes in music or film? I don't know.  And at what point does someone cross that line and become friends.  And at what point do we recross that line and the friendship dies?

If someone betrays you were they ever really a friend?  Can you accidentally betray someone? I know nothing hurts worse than being hurt by a friend.  I have had that happen and I have hurt friends.  I have an ex friend now who feels I betrayed him, he can't forgive me, and honestly I'm glad that friendship is dead.

Other friendships I can't let go.  Even though I know I should, I need to let them go and move on.  I don't want to but I know more pain lies ahead.  And it's my fault, my fault for being lonely, for seeing the best in someone and wanting more than friendship.  I should have known better.  I can't shake her out of my head, and I'm barely even in hers.

Is this person a friend, or am I just smitten. But this isn't just about her and it.  Can I be friends with someone with a huge age difference, of a different gender.  We don't hang out, we do talk and chat.  Mostly about the work/hobby we have in common, but occasionaly just about stuff.  It's just semantics really. Did I talk to my friend, or did I talk to an acquaintance, or associate? Why is it even important? Who said it was important?

If web writing was limited to things that were imporant then there would be no stories about Snooki and her devil spawn. Maybe I just wanted to write. To spill out just a bit of the boiling bile inside me before the pressure gets too much and I explode.  So I come here, where I don't have to stay on subject.  I don't have to be fair, accurate, or precise.  I can be bitter.  I can post whatever I want, good, bad, or random.  I can say thank you for making me smile.  I can say fuck you for hurting me, wihtout any of the Facebook bullshit.  And neither of you will ever read this. But someone might.  Whatever I have blown off steam.

Karen

I wish I were on Bourbon Street right now, under a full moon. I’d be on my way to a gentlemen’s club, a strip joint to be more to the point.  I’d find a girl there and I’d pretend she cared. I’d call her Karen and pretend she cared.  Just like a girl so long ago. A girl named Karen, and I thought she cared. I wouldn’t make her dance, just sit and talk. Talk about dreams and dreams, hopes and dreams.  Hope is a sort of dream, and it’s real until you wake up. I dreamed about her, but the more real she became, the more I shook myself awake.  I let the dream just float away.  Now, some days, some nights, I dream about Karen, but it’s no longer a dream, no longer a hope, but just a memory. A memory of a dream

What gives?

So a couple weeks ago I posted a picture that was anti "don't ask, don't tell" which showed a photo of two men kissing.  One man was in uniform. I knew I would get likes and positive comments from many friends, and assumed my anti-gay friends would just ignore it and whisper behind my back as usual. What somewhat shocked me, although it shouldn't have in retrospect, was a "friend" who posted one comment than un-friended me.  The comment was "disgraceful."

Now I need to mention beyond Facebook monikers this man was more acquaintance than friend.  The closest thing to friendship was when he helped me change a tire.  While I am glad he helped his motives were more in wanting me to put in a good word for him with his ex than christian charity.  Still it shocked me a little, then pissed me off.  After all, what gives?

Ok I get he is against gay marriage, against gays in the military, just anti gay, homophobic redneck, I get that.  He has two kids and I guess in true Mississsippi fashion, he is afraid if they see two men kissing they will catch the gay germ.  Wait nevermind it's a choice, so his daughters would think "damn kissing some one of the same sex looks cool.  Think I'll try it."

Maybe it was just disgust.  Why because growing up in the south most of us are taught it's disgusting.  We don't know why, we just had it beat into us. So a mixture of fear and disgust, and religious righteousness made it unacceptable to be friends with someone who would post a picture of dudes playing tonsil hockey.

Still what really, really gets me is why he waited so long.  This isn't the first controversial picture I have posted.  During the Iranian protests, I posted pictures of a woman lying dead after she was killed by police.  During the Syrian revolution I posted pictures of dead people, very graphic bloody pictures.  I have posted pictures of nearly nude women, and men.  I have posted videos with nudity, bth male and female full frontal nudity to boot. All this as well as profanity, blasphemy, and even anti American sentiment, but it was two men kissing that broke his proverbial camels back.  Really?

All I can say is that apparently you had rather your kids see pictures of bloody dead bodies than men kissing men.  You can deal with profanity, even nudity, but not the fact that some men, love other men.  That some women prefer the company of other women in bed.  Do you realize how fucked up this makes you?  That murder and gore is better than love?  I feel sorry for your daughters, and I feel sorry for the world that you are carrying on a legacy of fear and stupidity

need

I always thought that being needed would lead to being wanted.  truth is it doesn't really work that way.  Being needed, only leads to being used.  The thing is you can't blame the person who is using you, because it's your fault.  You encourage it, even demand it at times, hoping against hope that they will see you in a different light.  It's a lost cause.  The user might even come to completely depend on the used, like a tire depends on air, but it can never care for it.  It can even acknoledge that you haev always been there, always been supportive, but they can never want you. And if you withdraw that support, you feel like the evil one, maybe you are the evil one, because you caused it

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Miley Cyrus gets a tattoo

Miley Cyrus has once again made the headlines in a negative fashion. This times America’s collective ire has been raised over the appearance of a tattoo on the young starlets torso. Miley is of course best known as the star of Disney’s Hannah Montana, where she plays both down to earth Miley and pop sensation Hannah Montana. Miley Cyrus is a role model to thousands if not millions of young girls around the world. On Television she presents a squeaky clean image of an American teenager dealing with a normal teens pressure as well as the pressure of being a superstar. On the show Miley and Hannah are able to keep their lives separate. Unfortunately for Miley in real life her personal private life is inexorably intertwined with her stardom. Every mistake and faux pas of Miley’s is almost instantly internet fodder.
Miley is no stranger to controversy. Risqué photos of the Hannah Montana star were leaked to the internet, leading to outrage that a teenage girl would ever wear a bikini or behave in a the way that a teenager would. Then a vanity fair photo shoot, with a topless shot of Miley Cyrus, that admittedly was as creepy as it was beautiful. Miley also made headlines for dating boy in his twenties while she was only seventeen. More provocative pictures hit the net including and almost nipple slip during a Hannah Montana video shoot. A lot of the blame for the pictures has to go on her handlers but we as Americans have to take some blame too. We have to admit that Miley behaves the way most teens do and accept it as fact. Maybe we should stop worrying about what Miley does and teach our kids not to emulate every famous person on television.
As to the tattoo, we get all excited and there is no proof that it is anything more than a temporary. Honestly it is none of our business, that is between Miley Cyrus and her parents, and possibly the courts if a law was broken. Tattooing is illegal under the age of eighteen although some states apparently allow tattoos with parental permission. I think trying to track down where Miley got the tattoo and if it was legal is a major waste of time and resources. Law enforcement tends to turn a blind eye to underage celebrities anyway. How many times have underage celebrities been caught intoxicated on camera or driving illegally? Isn’t this far worse than a tattoo? Do we really need nationwide manhunt for who tattooed Hannah Montana?
Laws against underage tattoos are for the most part just another attempt for the government to legislate morality. Sure there are dangers to tattoos such as infections and possible blood borne pathogens but reputable shops should be fairly safe. Better to get a legal tattoo than one done in a basement or back room of someone’s house. Authorities cannot even stop tattooing in prison, how can we prevent it in the real world? A tattoo artist takes his skill home with him and can easily carry his equipment. How many underage girls end up trading sexual favors for illegal tattoos? I have personally met underage girls with tats, who told me exactly how they managed to get them. Isn’t the risks involved with underage sex more dangerous than the risks of a tattoo? I’m not naive though, girls will still have sex, they will still use sex as a trade item even if tats are legal, but they will still get tattoos even if they are illegal.
As for Miley she is just a girl making the decisions and mistakes that girls make every day. Maybe we as America should be less worried about Hannah Montana and more worried about important issues. America is at war, we are in the midst of a recession and the top internet search is for Miley Cyrus. A seventeen year old girl commands more attention than the deaths of United States soldiers. Maybe we all need to take a step back and reassess what really matters. Maybe we should take time to spend with our kids. Maybe even watch Hannah Montana with them and let them learn from how she handles her problems on TV. The we can let our kids see the mistakes Miley makes and help them understand how best to cope with the pressures that Miley, and many others deal with every day. Hannah Montana may be famous but you can bet your kids will be faced with a lot of the same choices she faces. Maybe they will not get the exposure but the temptations will be similar. Teach your kids not to emulate their favorite stars.
After all this give Miley Cyrus a break. Tiger Woods is a grown up and isn’t handling his life much better. Miley is just a teen, let her be a teen. Guys stop searching for pictures of Miley in a bikini. Remember she is a child, even though she is starting to look like a woman. Would you want someone downloading pictures of your seventeen year old daughter to masturbate too? Lets let her grow up as normal as she can under the circumstances. We really don’t need another Britney on a stretcher type pop star just yet.